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| Friday, December 31st, 2010 |
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If you've come here looking to learn a bit more about the Chimaeridae... then please go forward with an open mind: Switch Chimaeridae's Bio This entry has been post-dated in order to keep it readily available, and easy to locate. |
| Wednesday, April 9th, 2008 |
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therapy tomorrow... second session with the new therapist. still spinning wheels, it seems. putting off taxes- why? forms, forms, gotta be the forms- hate forms. ought to be sorting though boxes, too. it feels so unproductive- open a box, pull it all out, can't figure out what to keep, what to give away, what to toss. then it all goes back in the box; feels like not a bloody thing gets accomplished. fenix got downsized, and nothing new to fill the gap, yet. frustrating. job market and work in general seem fickle, unreliable. last car died; have payments on a new one, and no prospects for a new job for fenix, yet. he keeps checking, looking, calling, interviewing... nothing. trying to keep him from getting depressed, too. feh. |
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| Thursday, March 20th, 2008 |
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http://apokryfae.livejournal.com/71 |
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| Friday, February 16th, 2007 |
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Figured this was long overdue to be updated... ( survey ) |
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how to express an amorphous sensation in a coherent pattern of letters and words... wouldn't that be antithetical? better to speak a cloud... an anvilesque cumulonimbus... tenebrous, tenuous, tense too many pills, not enough cure... but how do you cure a wound that has so long been a part of you that you've grown compleatly around it... surround it... where does it end, and you begin? pensive, pent... manic... depressive... confused |
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| Monday, January 22nd, 2007 |
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...until something new catches (our) attention: Artist: Metisse Song: Boom Boom Ba A-boom boom ba A-boom boom ba A-boom boom ba A-boom boom ba Can you hear my heart beat in this bond Do you know that behind of this bond Lies the deep desire I'm in love hey Make a wonderful love if I may All my dreams to be all I can do Only I love, only love And you say I knew we should find a new way Make a wonderful love if I may Can you hear my heart beat in this hurt Do you know that behind of this hurt Lies the deep desire I'm in love hey Make a wonderful love if I may All my dreams to be all I can do Only I love, only love And you say I knew we should find a new way Make a wonderful love if I may Can you hear my heart beat in this hurt Do you know that behind of this hurt Lies the deep desire can you love hey Make a wonderful love if I may Make a wonderful love if I may Make a wonderful love if I may Can you hear my heart beat in this hurt Can you hear my heart beat in this hurt |
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| Wednesday, October 26th, 2005 |
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| Multiplicity: The Missing Manual is a wiki for multiples. If you run across an edit by "Del of the Chimaeridae" you've found my digital fingerprints... | ||||||||
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| Saturday, October 22nd, 2005 |
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| ^We finally got around to updating not only the blurb about ^us, but also ^our webpage... | ||||||||
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| Thursday, October 20th, 2005 |
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...and it will still have to wait for when ^we're more awake. ^We've got a bit to change and add to the little blurb about ^ourselves. Short form, though: Grim is no longer the Master of two of ^us. We're still friends, but we are no longer together. ^We're living in Florida, once again, after far, far too long. It's good to be home. ~the chimaeridae~ |
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| Thursday, February 17th, 2005 |
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Still with Grim (and still madly in love)... we've added a new person to our lives, drache... *bliss* Received the final installment of backpay last month, and bought a refurbished tablet PC... hoping to use the remainder as originally planned: either to bring Grim stateside, or go to Australia again. ... we're... going to be grandparents... still trying to wrap my brain around that one... Grandpa, Grandie, and Auntie Drache... um, does this mean I might have to change a diaper again at some point? I'm afraid... |
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| Monday, January 3rd, 2005 |
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...can lead to anxiety. better to be disjointed, not thinking, unfocused. "Pull my chin, stroke my hair, scratch my nose, hug my knees Try drink, food, cigarette, tension will not ease I tap my fingers, fold my arms, breathe in deep, cross my legs Shrug my shoulders, stretch my back - but nothing seems To please I need contact I need contact Nothing seems to please I need contact" |
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| Tuesday, July 27th, 2004 |
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Contested definition of marriage affects intersex people this link crossposted in Lotus Petals |
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| Sunday, April 4th, 2004 |
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that we're still wandering around somewhere... Take the "You're Senshi Who" Quiz at Wishing Moon. ok, enough idiocy.. ttfn |
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| Tuesday, January 27th, 2004 |
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started a bank account, bought a car, have a phone on order (which should be arriving today), paid part of back rent... need to talk to DFACS about help with medicare premiums and about disability income which should be starting in February. edited DJ profile a little... am supposed to be getting remainder of disability backpay in 2 more installments, 6 and 12 months hence, respectively... intend to use some of each payment to be with Aidan. not receiving SSI; will be making too much from SSDI (apparently just over $500/month is too much)... limits ideas of moving elsewhere, unless assistance for housing is available, or a roommate. focus is on clearing hurdles to move to Australia, at this point. |
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| Monday, December 29th, 2003 |
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missing m'Love... not much to say... thinking about things that need to be done next year... thankful for being loved by my One, who is the most amazing person I know Ophelia wants to cut again... don't know why... need to find out what she's bleeding over sigh |
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| Friday, December 12th, 2003 |
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wasn't much of one to begin with, but the sleep schedule is off again. just posted something written last night; edited time to reflect time of writing. have been unravelling quite a bit over the past few days. have therapy in 4 days; also have appointment with DFACS in 3, and phone appointment with SSA 1/2 hour before therapy. everything happens in clumps. wonder if the wounds will still be as ragged and open in 4 days time? 9 years to the day since the first car accident to cause back damage to our body. strange to think so much time has passed. need to apply for medicaid, and to see doctors again. many things have been put on hold for the past few years; want to get caught up. |
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| Thursday, December 11th, 2003 |
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blood-stained and bruised the wounds self-inflicted now tearing apart all the scars a skein of wounds and fear all kept so tightly wrapped a word to bring on the pain a torrent of voices like knives unravelling a perfect disguise the architecture mad a minefield, a void, and worlds no meter, no rhyme to frame the terror kept locked within anxiety warring with sleep the is no such thing as safety who are you and what do you want? |
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| Tuesday, December 9th, 2003 |
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i would ride through the night to you... drifting in and out of connection with the outside. have been looking at classified ads for New Orleans, and other locations. need to find out about housing and utilities assistance for those on disability, in various locations. am having difficulty maintaining focus. need to check a few things elsewhere. enough for now. |
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| Tuesday, December 2nd, 2003 |
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still in a state of "suspended animation"... received a notice of decision - fully favourable, but must wait for another office to contact regarding benefits and possibly further information. must try to make plans, even in the absence of concrete information about pension. need to take the cat to the vet, go to the dentist, see a doctor (or three), get a name change, passport, plane ticket, decide where to move (getting away from here is a must). off to do a little research. |
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| Sunday, November 30th, 2003 |
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incoherent? maybe. need someplace to be so. cold; overnight freezing. insufficient heat in the house. off to forage. |
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quixotic.
stressed.
pissed off.
drained.
contemplative.
content.
geeky.
accomplished.
loved.
confused.
melancholy.
anxious.
blank.
hungry.